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[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard Snart isn't your average 33 year old man. For one he's been on his own for most of his life. His mother died when he was a baby, he doesn't even really remember her. His step mother loved him but wasn't able to help him when he needed it the most. His father was a piece of shit who did everything he could to try and ruin Leonard's life from the beginning. Some might think that's a little melodramatic, but Len's father was a crook plain and simple. And a mean one at that. He was a dirty cop who lied, stole, and beat his son when he didn't behave exactly how Lewis wanted him too. Tired of all of it Len took a chance and went to the police when he was 14 years old. His father was planning to make a huge heist and he was forcing Len to go along with it. The teen knew it would fail...and knew he would more than likely be blamed for it all so he tried. He confessed, he told the police everything and thankfully the officer who interviewed him believed him. His father was arrested and sentenced to life in prison without parole.

At first Len was afraid he'd wind up in the system but Lisa's mom stepped forward and agreed to be his guardian until he was of age. That meant he got to see Lisa grow up..it meant he got to finish high school and go to trade school. He stayed with them even after he graduated to help out because Lisa's mom couldn't do everything and work 3 jobs. Things were hard but they were good for several years. When Len was 24 and Lisa was 16, almost 17 her mother fell ill and subsequently passed away. Len applied for and was granted custody of her and they stayed in that little apartment because it was really all they could afford. Lisa's mom had enough set aside to bury her essentially and not much else. That helped at least...they didn't have to worry about a roof or food. Len's security repair and installation job was enough to pay the bills and do a little but of fun things. So it was just the two of them and the next seven years were good. Lisa went to college on an athletic scholarship. She was bound for the Olympics when she got injured and was forced to retire early. She didn't mind though, she started teaching at the ice rink and she had people flocking to be trained by an olympic hopeful and someone who was genuinely a nice person...if a bit flirty.

At 25 Lisa was sharp as a tack and gorgeous and wonderful. She did what she could to help with the bills and she always made sure Len took care of himself too. Yeah...things seemed on the uptick...then the bubble burst again. One the way home from the ice rink one evening Lisa was mugged and beaten to within an inch of her life. Her leg broken in three places, broken wrist, three broken ribs, several broken fingers, black eye, internal bruising....she spent almost three weeks in the hospital and required several surgeries and followups to make sure everything healed right. She hadn't even started therapy yet and already they were drowning in medical bills.

Len hid them from her..even with his meager insurance policy there just wasn't enough to cover it all and they certainly didn't have enough coming in to cover it. Len spent several days begging every bank in the city for a loan only to be told no over and over. With Lisa back in the hospital for hopefully the last surgery Len did what he swore he would never do again. He did what he thought was the only thing he could do to make sure Lisa had what she needed. He looked up one of his fathers old partners and arranged a meeting. He didn't want to be a criminal...but Lisa needed him and for her he would do absolutely anything.

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[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard feels a little proud of himself for getting the man before him to relax a little. It's certainly a far cry from their first interaction and he's pleasantly surprised that he was right in his earlier assumption. If they had met under different circumstances he would have been very interested in being with him.

He lets Barry give him a drink which he sips slowly. he's already still slightly tipsy from all the whiskey but the food he'd eaten had helped. "Maybe you'll have to show me a few episodes sometime."

[roguelightning]

"Yeah. Yeah maybe we can."
Maybe.
He likes the idea, laying in bed, tangled together and watching Dr Who with Len. After.

"I'd like that." Barry finishes another container of takeout before setting it down. His jaw works a moment. "I don't want to talk about my scars. I don't like being held down. I'm a switch, so I'm okay with either. Um. My speed means I'm clean. But it also means I need to finish a few times a night."

[cold_n_calculating]

Len doesn't ask, he hadn't really had the intention of asking, but all the same he's not surprised by Barry's random interjection of what he has to say.

"I don't want to talk about my scars either, I don't mind being held down as long as I'm not bound. I am also a switch though I prefer topping, I am clean but I prefer condoms unless I'm in a committed relationship." Len says laying his own cards out on the table. It's only fair, right?

[roguelightning]

A nod. "Okay. That's fair. I don't have a problem letting you top." He kind of figured the 'didn't like being topped' already, and wisely doesn't bring it up now. "Condoms are okay too."

[cold_n_calculating]

“Can I ask why you hate condoms so much?” Given his reaction now and last time Len knows there has to be a reason why. If they’re going to do this he wants Barry to be as comfortable as he can be. Same with himself. Leonard has a hard time enjoying sex with someone he doesn’t trust. While he knows they’re not going to be boyfriends there is still room to trust him enough to be topped in return and without the protection of rubbers.

[roguelightning]

Barry drops his eyes to the table. "Because they remind me of a bad time in my life. But I'll live with them here. It's fine." Because Len isn't Thawne. Or Merlyn. Or Darkh. They're dead. They can't hurt him again.

[cold_n_calculating]

Len has an internal debate with himself...he understands...it's the exact reason he refuses to not have one.

"Would...would a compromise work? If you prefer me to not wear one topping you I will do it, but I won't let you top me without one. Does that work?"

[roguelightning]

Barry looks up, confused. "You hated it when I was topping you. It's why I let you go, it's why I stopped."

So why would he even bring it up?

[cold_n_calculating]

“I hated it because of the context, Barry. I was whoring myself to you for money to help my sister. That’s not exactly the way trust is formed. I don’t bottom for people I don’t trust.” Leonard says carefully. Honestly.

“That said it was good...physically anyway.”

[roguelightning]

Barry picks at his food. "I'm not a one and done anymore. Not since the explosion. Not since I was changed." Since he became a monster. A freak.

"I won't ask you to do anything you don't want."

[cold_n_calculating]

“I am typically only able to come once a night but I’m usually pretty good with stamina. And I don’t mind doing other things.” Len says because he doesn’t. If you still need more you can top me....it’s not about the bare feeling...I...don’t come in me. Okay?”

[roguelightning]

Barry wishes he could trust this, that it'd be this simple. But he needs this so he nods. "I won't. You have your limits. I got mine."

They both have their scars, their triggers. Things they don't want to talk about.

"That's fair."

[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard can tell Barry is not very comfortable so he makes sure to keep his body language unthreatening. “What can I do to help you relax?”

[roguelightning]

"Touch me. Anywhere. It doesn't have to be sexual." He used to thrive on touch, drown in it. But these days, he's forced to be alone. Isolated.
Cisco tries to help, but his powers don't make it easy for him, so Barry's stopped asking.

[cold_n_calculating]

Len moves to sit beside Barry on the couch. He doesn’t hesitate but he does move slowly so as to not startle Barry. He puts an arm up on the back of the couch and slides his fingers into Barry’s hair scratching at his scalp. He used to do this for Lisa and it always calmed her down.

“This okay ?”

[roguelightning]

The slow movement is appreciated and Barry closes his eyes as fingers sink into his hair, blunt nails along his scalp. A few breaths and he goes relaxed and easy bedside him.

"Yeah. Very okay."

Nobody's touched him like that since his mother, since she stroked his hair to help him sleep.

[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard relaxes a bit more as well and continues to stroke and pet Barry enjoying the way the younger man melts from the touch. “Do you want more food? There’s some things I can feed you if you need more.”

[roguelightning]

Barry's smile is only slightly sad as he leans into every touch. "I'm always hungry. When you use speed it burns through calories super fast." Funny how he's ready to tell Leonard anything with a few small kindnesses.

[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard frowns slightly. “Surely there is a cap I mean you have to sleep right? You can’t eat 24/7...”

[roguelightning]

Barry huffs and leans into his touch a little more. "Guess I got used to going to sleep hungry, I don't think about it as much. Cisco's worked out a few bars that are calorie bricks."

A nose wrinkle. "Too bad they taste like it."

[cold_n_calculating]

Leonard makes a small humming sound. His analytical mind is working overtime trying to puzzle out Barry's situation. He doesn't really have anything to say so he simply picks up a plate of dumplings and begins to feed them to Barry one at a time. And he does that with several other entrees over the course of the next thirty minutes all the while keeping up the petting of his scalp.

Most of the food is gone at this point. All of the room service has been eaten but there's still two more thai dishes and a pizza.

"Feeling any better?"

[roguelightning]

Barry is relaxed and completely boneless as the last of the food vanishes. His eyes flutter open at the question, a rare smile in reply. "Mn. Can't remember the last time I felt so good."

[cold_n_calculating]

“You look like you’re about to fall asleep.” Leonard teases softly even as he continues to gently touch Barry. His fingers move from his scalp to his neck and shoulders. “I’ve been told I give a pretty good back rub. If you’re interested.”

[roguelightning]

Barry groans as skilled fingers find the first round of knots along his shoulders. "Oh my god I will so make it up to you too," he promises. Anything as long as he keeps getting him. Keeps touching him so gently.

[cold_n_calculating]

“Come on.” Len nudges him up. “Beds better for this.” He says. Len has taken his shoes off when he’d arrived so he had no problems maneuvering Barry around so he was laying face down on top of the bed.

“Shirt on or off. It’s your choice.”